I hurt myself the most

Even if i seem like i know so much,
I'm just trying to learn something

Even if i seem like i'm criticizing you,
I'm probably criticizing myself

Even if i seem like i'm smiling,
I might be crying inside at the moment

Even if i seem like i'm so strong,
It'might be my last tricks to stay on my feet

Even if i seem to be angry to you,
It might be because of my dissapointment about you

Maybe i expected too much from you,
maybe i'm right,
maybe it's you.

Even if i seem like i'm hurting you,
I hurt myself the most
and every time i yell out loud,
The echoes of my voice deafen my ears,
The brightness of my eyes blind myself,
The fire inside me burns my soul.

Even if i seem like i''m hurting you
I hurt myself the most.

It's been like this so far
It doesn't matter who you are...

The things i miss the most

1.Seeing my grandpa, my other grandpa and grandma.I miss them a lot.
2.Living with my host families in USA
3.My exchage year! It was a speacial year.I would do everything to go back and live those moments again with my friends...
4.Climbing to sides of the doors in the house. Now i'm too big for that!
5.Being happy for achieving to reach somewhere way high for me. I was 3 or 4 when i was being proud of myself for being successful at climbing just two stairs.I was calling my dad, yellin " Dad, do you see where i've climbed, can you believe!!":D:D
6.Being in love.I miss it,too.
7.Eating peanut butter=) so delicious!
8.Acting on stage. It's been 9 months since i left the drama workshop in my school, i've missed acting already.Stage is one of the rare places that i really feel like i'm breathing.
9.Seeing a new country. That's a passion for me as well. It's good for renewing and refreshing.
10.To finish the book i start reading. I don't know where i get this habit from, but i just can't finsh a book since last year. I read 4-5 books, all at the same time,and start with a full of excitement, but then lose my interest and don't finish any of them!The only thing i know is i wasn't like this before, i used to finish everything that i started, but now i just lose my concentration very quick.
10. Sitting on the shopping cart and making the person next to me push it fast so i could drive(!) the cart so fast and scare the people shopping in the market.
11. The times when people thought it was normal for my age to play games, climb trees and walls, to act weird, to talk and laugh hard and loud, to feel free to get up some mischief, eating my meal without using knife and fork- just with my hands, talking with my toys, wearing an otfit colored like a rainbow with a puffy short skirt and patent leather shoes, dancing wherever i feel like dancing: in the street, out there in parking area, in the most serious and formal part of a ceremony..anywhere! Well, in fact i still do all these things. The only difference is people think i'm acting like mad when i do these.Some think this is crazy but i think this is so humanly and being mature/reasonable doesn't mean pretending to act like an adult, while thinking immaturely. It's all about your mind and heart,not about your outfit or supressing your enthusiasm. You can be mature, if only you don't hide your enthusiasm.Just like i do:)
12. Eating anything- chocolate, cotton candy, candybars, chips, ice cream and french fries without thinking about gaining weight:))

Finally, "of all the things i've lost, i miss my mind the most"

Asi se baila el tango

Have you seen the movie "Take The Lead"?

I drew the poster of that movie this time... The soundtrack and the dances of the movie were so were amazing, so enthusiastic that makes me dance every time i hear or see:)

I strongly recommend you to see the movie and listen its soundtrack. It's so dynamic and fun.

Freedom

I totally love dolphins! I think they're so adorable, cute, witty,playful and friendly. If i wasn't a human,i would prefer to be dolphin because of these characteristics of dolphins and my love of sea, being in water, swimming and underwater life. I once had this beautiful dream, i was swimming in an ocean with lots and lots of dolphins around me, i was holding one of them tightly which made me move faster in water and that was such fun.I remember waking up with a smile on my face and an unbelievable peace inside me...It was such a wonderful dream!
Since my interest in dolphins, i decided to draw one a while ago, and here's the result:



I set my goals higher everyday
I make my own rules that I will obey
As long as I live
This is the life
I was born to lead
Unique chance for me to express myself
And fulfill my dreams
I'm in control of this ship of mine
And everything will be just fine
Like the wind I'm free to go anywhere
I got my song, it dances in the air
Now I know what to do with my life
So you will hear my freedom call
All those bad things I once went through
Changed into blessings when I changed the point of view
I needed them to growI've changed so much,
I'm finally free
To do what I want without feeling of guilt or fear
It's so amazing
I'm in control of this ship of mine
And everything will be just fine
Like the wind I'm free to go anywhere
I got my song, it dances in the air
Now I know what to do with my life
So you will hear my freedom call

(Stratovarius)

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The Fear

i don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
i don’t know how i’m meant to feel anymore
when do you think it will all become clear?
‘cuz i’m being taken over by the fear




forget about guns and forget ammunition
cause i’m killing them all on my own little mission
now i’m not a saint but i’m not a sinner
now everything's cool as long as i’m getting thinner

About Schmidt

Whose eyes are these?

He's a fascinating actor. He gave life to many many characters that have been remembered throughout many years. Maybe the most charismatic actor ever.One of the greates actors in the whole world. What if i say: WOLF ?